I have explored all the possible outcomes
Of our encounter
Imagined the lighting, the space, the smell
I have exhausted every topic of conversation
We may have
Obviously they were all monologues
Directed by me.
Those who say, ‘it is best not to have any expectations’
Really don’t have a clue
So I ask, if I have already explored and exhausted all the outcomes
Of our meeting
What more from it can I expect?
I have pre-listed everything I may find displeasing in you.
What about me?
No, no, there is nothing displeasing about me
As I carry on these monologues
Only pausing to reformulate what I’ve said
To say it better
You carry an intense look of desire in your eyes
(Carry on, it suits you, really)
So if I am the focal point of my own daydreaming-
Re-adjusting the lighting
Modifying my clothes
Mapping the possible ramifications
Of my own tirade
Should I not then conclude
That the notion of you has become obsolete?