My stomach cramps and churns
Nothing alarming, I think
Have you had these symptoms before?
As a matter of fact yes…
But let us not dwell on the past.
And then comes D day
Complete starvation.
Just before the meeting
A full grown panic attack.
Ah yes, I had forgotten you old friend.
Like an uninvited guest
You will not leave.
And of the two
I always choose you.
If for nothing else…
Then for your consistency.
I’ll hold your imaginary hand
As I sit across from him,
Although your presence
Is really only felt
In the pressure on my chest.
Lost in thought
What if?
What if insanity overtakes me
Just this once?
I shudder at the thought.
He reaches over
And squeezes my hand
‘Where are you?’
Startled by the warm touch
I look down at this tangible hand.
So this is what reality feels like.